Riwayat

Riwayat.
I thought it was over
this journey I had
The journey that gave me family
Space I could fill with my stories
Our stories
Those of bleak moments
we eventually sweep under the bed
Never to be talked about
because it hurt too much
because it didn't seem to matter.

Riwayat.
Came back to haunt me
With its shadows
Darker than ever
Telling me to listen
Listen.
Listen with your whole being
And take me as I am
I need you
And you need this.
We all need this
Mundane routines
Guilty indulgence
Fear of the unknown
Sharp painful frustrations
Bursts of laughter
Deep grief
Helplessness
And that someone
Or something,
that reminds you that it's all okay

It's only temporary.